Drastic times call for drastic measures

I'm a science girl. The scientific method should rule most decision making.  I like data to support hypotheses. So when Eastern practices are brought into play, I don't really know how to act.  You can believe what you want, but I'll stick to science.

Then you near the year anniversary when your life changed dramatically.  Anniversary makes it sound like something to celebrate, which it is not.  Having your husband tell you he wants a divorce is not a celebratory moment. Although in hindsight, while devastating, there were signs of a dysfunctional relationship that I ignored and rationalized as normal. Everything has worked out for the best, but I'm still feeling a bit emotionally dead inside.  The basics are okay- happy, sad, bored (pandemic and all). Some of the more complex- trusting, connected, loved- those are trouble spots. What most troubling is that I'm starting to doubt if I need those in my life. So I need to do something. Anything.

Enter Reiki. A friend of mine from ages ago- as in the word teen was still involved in saying my age- posted that she is a a Reiki master.  Kundalini Reiki to be specific, not that I know what that is. She mentioned putting the past behind you and going forward to your best life. I was sold. So I set up an appointment with her.  What's the worst that can happen?

 What to expect:  I can't even envision what happens in a Reiki session. I imagine lying on the ground and having someone wave their hands over me. I'm hoping that strong meditation isn't involved because when I've tried to meditate before, my mind wanders. Not just wanders, my mind takes a road trip. But I'm going to try it.

Why am I doing this:  I've got to do something. I'm action oriented. There are probably far more people that believe Reiki is healing and the way to go than people who think it is crap.  All those people who believe can't be wrong. I'm keeping an open mind but not telling my sister.  She is of the "it is crap" camp. I've imagined walking away from this experience feeling lighter. I would like to feel open and accepting.  And on the drive home, I'm going to treat myself to some ice cream, so it won't be a total loss of an evening. Don't worry, I'll report back.