I'm feeling discouraged today. And a little angry. So another night with no phone call makes me want to send a text like, "I thought you had more integrity". Seriously, don't say you're going to call in a specific time frame if you have no intention of calling. Something vague like, "we'll talk later," would work. If things are so crazy that you can't talk, send a text. Something. I feel like there is a black hole associated with my dating life that sucks up anything near it.
As if that black hole weren't enough reason to dive into a pint of Ben and Jerry's, there's my Couch to 5K. I can run a mile. Realistically, it's a jog but humor me. I get to a mile and I'm ready to collapse. My heart rate is about 160 at that point. My lungs can't get enough oxygen, so I walk for about two minutes. Then I can usually run for about six minutes more. That would be a total of 1.5 miles. And I can't get past this. Even by a minute. I'm trying to adjust my food to better support a workout. It's not enough. It's frustrating. Last night, after two minutes of walking I wasn't ready. Another minute of walking, then I'll run for six more, or so I thought. Nope. I made it three more before it felt like my legs were going to collapse. I'm sticking with it, and hoping to see an increase in time. If I'm nothing else, I'm determined and stubborn. I'd like to increase past one mile by just a minute. I can work from there. But this long with a stalemate is torture.
For now, I wait to hear from my Dating Coordinator and keep on running. Again.
I personally felt like the Couch to 5K was an unrealistic plan for someone who really was just getting into running. It really has you ramp up your running time pretty quickly, and I have also always quit at the point where I could run a mile, walk a bit for recovery, and then run another half mile. I now am gauging my time with the songs I am listening to...like I will say I will run for four songs or whatever. That has helped me avoid staring at the treadmill display the whole time.
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