Happy ending

I spent some time reviewing my previous posts. Self reflection can be useful. I saw that I used the same title twice (One Week). Two entirely different posts. Neither of them particularly happy. When I started blogging, I hoped to be writing about dates. Lots of dates. I envisioned frequent meetings, witty stories of the people I met. My self reflection is proving differently and I'm not sure 'useful' is the word I'd use to describe it. I read a lot of whining, self pity, and even a little anger at times. Is this really me?

Really, I am a happy person. Well, I want to be a happy person. All I want is a happy ending. I want to hit the end of my 'year of dating' with a post about success and a relationship and finding what I've always been looking for. Actually, I wanted to be able to tell the service that they can stop setting up dates for me. Nothing would have made me happier to then to have to suspend my membership because I was dating someone. It's seven months later. I'm not any closer. In fact, I'm feeling less optimistic than ever. But that will only last until the next phone call from the Dating Coordinator.

I've had four dates set up by Dating Coordinator, et al. Each had potential to be a good match for me. Laid back personality but a little ambitious. Interesting and a little on the geeky side. Delaware may have been a little too artsy for me, a little too much blue in his personality. The others were probably all green, just like me. Do you how hard it is to find a single green? What makes it even harder is that greens tend to be a bit introverted. For a girl, it's not easy being green. (I couldn't resist.)

Maybe it's time for my Dating Coach/Life Coach session. I'm curious as to what she has to say. Geez, if I'm doing this all wrong, won't that make for a fun post? See? I'm getting what I asked for after all.